A watched pot and all that

Well I’ve been doing what I always mentally criticise everyone else for doing and that’s weighing myself everyday to discover I haven’t lost anything then getting all disappointed and cross. I am such a dumbass. I know last Saturday’s weigh in was a complete fluke and it was all dehydration that made me 69.9 so really I shouldn’t complain that my real weight is in fact 70.4 (as of this morning) but its still annoying because its going to mean my little graph shows a gain and it feels like my Easter goal of 66 is way out of reach. So annoying.

I’ve been having a good week though. On Tuesday night it was our firm’s annual quiz night which was quite fun but I wasn’t looking forward to it because I was really tired and I knew I would have to drink and probably eat crap. I was in a team with my supervisor who really took advantage of the free booze and kept filling up everyone’s glasses so I probably had maybe 6 points worth of wine over 4 hours or so, and I had some fried prawns and wedges as well which I called 6 points. So that took care of Monday’s saved points pretty much and I didn’t have dinner when I got home so I went to bed feeling a bit empty so it could have been worse.

Last night I went to the gym and did 50 minutes cardio then made chicken in herby tinned tomatoes on brown rice. Was really nice and filling so was a good meal. Tonight I am going to go to the gym then I’m not sure what’s for dinner as G may be working late. If he is, I will have soup. If he’s home for dinner I might make a prawn stir fry or something.

Things have been hotting up on the wedding front though. I spoke last night on the phone with the DJ I think we’re going to book. He is very professional, slick and polished and I can’t help but take the piss out of him behind his back. He’s the Chuck Woollery guy I’ve mentioned and I don’t know. Half of me thinks bugger it, he knows what he’s doing, he will do a lot of work behind the scenes making sure things are organised (he also acts as MC if we want) and his playlist is good. The other half thinks people are going to MOCK us for having the most CHEESY DJ ever and I just don’t want my cool, elegant wedding marred by this guy being a cock. So it’s a bit tricky. G is dead against having him as MC because he thinks people will think we have no mates and it’s a bit random that he is a complete stranger and he’s taking on quite an important role in the wedding. But the problem is, we don’t really have anyone else lined up who would be suitable to do it. I think we’d still get the best man (whoever he may be, G has GOT to get on to that) to read the telegrams/emails etc and we would simply have DJ Dick to do the housekeeping stuff like where guests can smoke, where the loos are, announce the first dance and stuff. Oh CRAP I don’t know.

I think we will have the serial killer guy as our videographer (because he is the only one who is available really), my makeup person has found a great (she says) hair person for us (she lives in Wellington and has done hair professionally for many years, including for 7 years in London) and in fact is makeup person’s own hairdresser), flowers are sorted, cars are sorted, sting quartet done, photographer done (I feel like Kath Day-Knight if anyone gets the Kath and Kim reference) so apart really from the cake everything is as booked as it can be.

Our next big focus is our wedding invitations and save the date cards. I have found some really nice letterpress invitations from Cardlab which I think we will go with (for save the date cards anyway). They are going to send me some ribbon samples though so I can get a feel for the colours. At the moment, I am thinking my two bridesmaids in a sort of sage green (same colour, different style dresses) and am thinking that the colours are going to be sage green, taupe and ivory so that they all tone in nicely with each other. So I’m thinking ribbons etc on the save the date cards will be the colours of the BM dresses but if I can’t get the ribbon colour in green that I like, then I’ll just go with a pale beige or plain ivory. The card itself will probably be ivory rather than white white but I want to have another look at the samples at home. Wedding invitations here are really expensive so I plan to look for invitations in NZ when we go back in June to see if we can get them there and save some cash. In the meantime I’ll just get the save the date cards ordered and organised.

My next big stress (and to be honest I am already stressing about it) is wedding music. G only listens to classical so he will be in charge of finding something for me to walk up the aisle to and in charge of the play list for the sting quartet, but he has no idea about any popular music so that is proving quite tricky. I don’t want anything too modern that will date (Snow Patrol’s Chasing Cars seems to be HUGE on the wedding scene at the moment but I just think its too NOW even though I love the song and have the album). My problem is that all the songs I really like are sad songs – about breaking up, or fighting, or being alone etc etc and none of them are about love or happy things. Says something about my personality, no? And as G only listens to classical, we don’t have an ‘our song’ so I can’t choose something ‘personal to us’. Because you know what is personal to us? TV shows like House and The Sopranos – that’s what we like to do in our spare us time. And I’m not having my first dance to ‘Woke up this morning and got myself a gun…’ Totally the wrong vibe for a wedding.

So far I have come up with only one song as a possible first dance contender, and that’s the Beatles In My Life – you know the one, ‘There are places I remember, all my li-i-i-fe though some have changed, some for-ever not for better…’ etc etc . I like it because I like the tune and its not a really overwhelming, sickly sweet love song but its about acknowledging that you have a past and separate lives and while you had previous loves and cared for people and things, you love that person (ie the person you’re with) more. But it might be hard to dance to and kind of send out the wrong message (even though it’s a message I really like). Bugger it, I don’t know. I need to come up with a first dance song, music (at least 5 mins worth) for the signing of the register and exit (back down the aisle) music. And possibly a last dance song. And then get G to like them all – he doesn’t know pop music but he knows what he hates.

Well more on that another time. At least it gives me something to do at the gym – flick through my ipod to see what I have. So far, nothing is appropriate. Annoying.

I is a scale whore

Yeah so I sneaked a peak at the scale today (oh alright, and yesterday) and I'm up again to 70.5kg. CRAP. Its my own fault for looking I know. But hey, I will just use the anger at the scale to fuel my exercise regime. Right now I am in the zone where I don't even THINK about going to the gym after work - I just GO. There is no wrestling with myself from 3pm onwards trying to think of a reason not to go. Hell today I had a stomach ache and still WENT. I love it when I'm just in that zone you know. So much less energy wasted.

I am going to do a big try-on of my clothes this weekend to guage where I am (I have little faith that the 69.9 from last Saturday is going to be rearing its beautiful head you know) and I need to feel some baggy trousers to keep me going. I put on my Wallis petite size 16 pants today (freshly washed) and they were nice and baggy. YAY!

Wedding-wise I think I have booked a videographer (he looks kind of like a serial killer on his website but I'm letting that go...) and possibly also a DJ (though he kind of reminds me of Chuck off the Love Connection and I'm sure would do a brilliant Isaac-off-The-Love-Boat 2 finger gun salute, I bet. But beggars, choosers etc. I am really excited now about my dress. I have a picture of what I want in my mind but have yet to see it in a magazine anywhere. I am worried I may have to get it made if I don't see anything I love more than my what I am imagining and that raises a few problems (briefly, the mother in law to be has given me money to buy my dress - very generous of her and I am truly lucky - but she also has a friend who would 'love to make my dress and used to make dresses for Princess Di don't you know'. I have seen her work and frankly HELL NO) so I would need to be sneaky...

WAHOO

So bad news is I woke up with a hangover, good news is I am now in the 60s!!! In your FACE 70s. Admitedly only 100g under but I'm in the 60s!!!! 69.9kg. Rock on.

I don't really trust the number though as last night got a little out of control. My friend A came over and we hadn't seen each other for like a month (in fairness even if we had this would have happened. We have no self control) and despite buying pasta and chilli tomato pasta sauce, we managed to only eat low fat hummus, olives, crackers and chutney. Oh and 3 bottles of wine between the two of us. Oh was SUCH a good idea at the time though.

Anyways, so woke up this morning feeling like COMPLETE shit and clearly dehydrated to the point where I lost 1.2kg but it was worth it to get the result. Almost.

I put my levis jeans on today (men's fit size 36 I think) and they feel WAY bigger. Not pulling across the butt at ALL so am v pleased about that. But god I have SUCH a long way to go. And to make my goal I have to lose 5kg in 8 weeks which seems way the fuck out of reach. I REALLY want to be 66kg for my trip to Boston. Really really want to be 66kg.

Wedding-wise I am all about trying to find a videographer. God its hard.

Back home

So I'm back in London having been up north for work for the last week. I have to say, I'm quite proud of my efforts on the old diet while I was away. I am not normally good being away from my routine but I kept it together and went to the gym 3 times (would have been 4 if my knees hadn't started getting sore) and did well on my diet - yay me!

So I weighed in yesterday to find I had lost 500g and am now down to 71.1kg or 11 stone 2 and three quarters. I must admit to feeling a little disappointed that it wasn't more but am hoping to be in the 70s in my weigh in this week (ie 70 point something). We shall see.

So its Sunday evening, I have lots of points still left to play with, Might go see what's for dinner.

Just chugging along

Nothing much to report really, just going through the motions. I woke up feeling completely wiped out this morning and kept pressing 'snooze' on my alarm and then falling immediately back to sleep. I decided as I was walking to where I'm working at the moment and decided that I would take tonight off from exercise because of my sore knees, swollen boobs and period cramps.

Cut to me, sitting at my computer after having done a mini-work out in the hotel gym... I changed my mind a few times throughout the day about whether to work out or not. On the one hand my leg and butt muscles felt a little tender, telling me that I had worked them a little harder than they were used to with the uphill walking I am forced to do as a workout here. On the other hand I am really worried I might continue to damage my knees and actually put myself out of action for longer than I need be.

On balance, I decided I would just do a 40 minute walk on the treadmill, figuring it was better than a kick in the head. Then once I was there my knees felt ok so I stepped it up a notch and did some serious uphill walking for about 40 minutes, taking the gradient up every 5-10 minutes. So I feel happy with that and my knees aren't screaming at me, so I'll call it a success.

Now I'm feeling knackered and am looking forward to dinner which is a salad and sliced chicken (5 pts for both), then marks and spencer spiced rhubarb yoghurt for pudding (very yummy and only 1 pt). So my points for the day will be 17, leaving me 2 to save. I am taking it a bit easier on saving points this week as I don't have any big social occasion this weekend to save for. I find I usually don't spend my points in the week so I really want to concentrate on eating what I am allowed to see if that assists my weight loss. I'm really looking forward to seeing the scales this week as I am hoping for a loss (even though I generally don't lose on week 2) because I may have been retaining water from my period.

So wedding wise, I got an email this morning from the makeup artist that a spa in Napier have recommended as being good and will come to you. She seems good, having run the makeup and hair departments for Channel 9 in Sydney and recently having returned to the HB. She also does hair. So I'll google her and ask around on my bridal forums to see if anyone else has used her etc. She says she also does hair which is great but my problem is there will be 3 of us getting hair and makeup done and if its only her doing all of it, the first person would need to be made up at 6 o'clock in the morning for us all to be done!!

I was also looking at wedding dresses on the net last night. A lot of sites i didn't bother with as the page took so long to load, but I really do like the dresses that Joanna Hehir does (and she is sort of within my price range) so i will definitely go see her. I have kind of an idea in mind of what i think I would like, but as always you need to try things on just to see.

Right, my stomach is growling so it must be dinner time. Until next time...

Fuck

Just posted a long post and it got lost because my stupid internet got cut off and I didn't realise. Fuck fuck fuck.

Here are the highlights:

• my knees hurt so I'm going to take the high impact exercise easily for the rest of the week - uphill walking only
• my period arrived so I'm cramping to buggery
• I'm feeling really motivated so even though typically my second weigh in is disappointing, it will just deflate rather than derail me. I LOVE it when I'm not really craving something - even alcohol
• I have found a potential videographer for the wedding and have emailed to see whether they are available. Fingers crossed.
• Ditto on a makeup artist - she is a recommendation from a spa I have never been to, so not sure how much the recommendation is worth. People need to advertise on the web to make it easier for idiots like me to plan their weddings from the other side of the fricking world
• I'm in desperate need of a holiday

Right, well that's about it really. Can't be bothered re-hashing the whole thing so that's the cliff notes edition.

Over and out

Still going

So it was my birthday yesterday and apart from having to travel up north for work, it was a really great day. G took me out for a very yummy lunch - I had 2 slices of really nice bread and butter, a starter of potted shrimp and melba toast and then fish and chips. YUMMY!! I typically don't care for fish and chips over here as they leave the skin on and it just doesn't taste right. But this was lovely so was pleased. And F&C is my 'go-to' food when I'm not dieting. We also had a glass of rose champagne and then a bottle of South African red. Lovely. Afterwards, we went to a nearby All Bar One bar and had another glass of wine and read the papers. It was really nice.

Then I had to get the train up north so I decided to pay the £15 upgrade to First. Well worth it. It was much quieter and cleaner and just more relaxing. I bought a little bottle of sparkling wine to drink on the train and had a bag of french fries crisps and a chocolate bar. Well it WAS my birthday.

When I got to the hotel I had another little bottle of wine, a marks and spencer prawn and chicken noodle salad and a slice of carrott cake. Buying just a slice of cake and not like a 2-pack of cheesecake or similar is pretty big news for me. Usually I'm all about the quantity and would get panicked that I would run out of food so exercising a bit of self control was a bit of a break through!

So I went to bed feeling headachey and sick and had a terrible night's sleep. I guess that tells me something.

So I had a full on work day today with things not going very smoothly but I am pleased I still did 40 minutes in the hotel gym (not as intensive a workout as I would normally do because the only machine I can use without really hurting myself is the treadmill and I still can't run for too long) and have eaten really well - some cereal and yoghurt for breakfast, tomato soup and a bread roll for lunch, prawn salad and vine leaves for dinner with some fruit salad and yoghurt still to come. A nice clean 15 point day, thus saving 4.

I'm still waiting on my fucking period to arrive too which is making me antsy. It really hurts to exercise because my boobs are so swollen and tender (please excuse the p0rn talk!) and I'm just generally uncomfortable so I hope it comes tomorrow. Then just two days of agonizing cramps and bleeding then I'm home free for another 5 weeks.

So wedding wise I am happy to report that the florist has confirmed she is able to do my wedding and I'll meet with her when G and I go back in June. Still need to find a videographer and DJ though. Grrrrrr.

I spoke with a friend of mine tonight on the phone, E. E and I met at my first job in the UK (god it was AWFUL) and we bonded because we were cool and funny and eveyone else were whinging, small minded, petty people). She is my oldest English friend here (in terms of how long we have been friends, not her age) and we have in the past gone on trips together and see each other now probably every month or so. So I told her about G's friend J who told him that she would not be coming to the wedding because (and this is actually what she said) she doesn't have a boyfriend and going to weddings is too hard when you're single. What the FUCK??? I am pretty sure she will change her mind if others from the same group come over (she wont' want to miss out) but it still really fucks me off that this is her lame-ass excuse. What else won't she do because she is single?? We long ago decided that because the wedding is in NZ and it IS a long way to travel, everyone we invite if they're not in a couple can attend with a friend. We figured that if they are coming all the way over, they are unlikely to attend by themselves and it would be not very nice for the person who goes with them to be left to their own devices when our guest is at the wedding. And we just want people to enjoy themselves and you do tend to if you know at least ONE person at an event. But apparently this would make J feel even worse. So we can't win.

Anyway, I was telling E this and telling her how upset I was on G's behalf and she just sort of agreed and made all the right noises. What she DIDN'T say was 'well of course I will be coming' or make any sort of noises that would suggest she and her boyfriend were coming. When G and I first got engaged (and in fact before when I talked about getting married and knew it would be in NZ) she was all for coming to NZ and said she would. Now, I guess as the wedding is next year and not just some indeterminate time way in the future, she is starting to reconsider. And that makes me quite sad. I always kind of had it in the back of my mind that she wouldn't come as she is a bit flakey and does tend to pull out of things at the last minute. But I feel quite hurt about this. I know its a LONG way to go and its expensive (E by the way is a professional person and owns with her boyfriend at least 2 properties in London so they're not short of cash exactly) and it would mean a fair chunk of their annual leave being accounted for, but its not like I'm asking them to go somewhere really rubbish and boring. Its NEW ZEALAND. When I tell people I'm from NZ the response I always get without fail is 'oh I'd LOVE to go there'. So now I'm giving people the opportunity and suddenly its too much trouble. It will be a fucking HOLIDAY for them for God's sakes.

Anyway, rant over but I am quite hurt and I know G is too. We know its OUR wedding and not everyone is going to be quite so excited about it as us (I mean how many times have I been to a wedding and really hated the effort involved?) but i would like to think that our closest friends would make an effort. So starting to get worried about making the minimum guest list of 70 for the reception now. Fuck.

Right well on that note I might actually do up a guest list for my side of things to see where we are. At least my diet is going well, right?

First weigh in

Am pleased to announce that I lost 2 and a half pounds in my weigh in on Friday. That is a pretty big deal for me as I find it notoriously hard to lose weight in any decent amount. So YAY me. That brings me down to 71.6kg which means a loss of 5.7kg I need to achieve in 10 weeks to make my goal. God I hope I make it. I was looking in my old notebooks from the last time I dieted (oh those heady days of 2006) and at 66kg I was wearing size 10 (ie UK size 14) Gap dark long and lean jeans and feeling pretty fine. So 66kg would rock in the next 10 weeks.

So tomorrow is my birthday and G is taking me out to lunch. I have saved 4 points each day, Mon-Thurs and 1pt last night so have a total of 17 pts saved up. So far today I have had 11.5 points - 2 seeded toast with low fat butter (4), a bagel with salmon and low fat cream cheese (am calling it 6 - sue me) and a half pint of leffe beer (1.5). Tonight we are going to a 40th birthday party of the wife of some guy G went to uni with like a million years ago and hasn't seen since. I'm annoyed about having to go because its cold and in the middle of fucking NOWHERE so we're getting a cab to waterloo and then the half hour train journey to New Malden. Yawn.

But I have presents to open tomorrow so yay. But then I have a 5.30 train to Manchester so boo. Have decided to upgrade to a first class ticket for £15. Its my birthday after all. Am a bit worried about the work I'm going up to deal with actually so its not going to be great. And of course my suits don't fit so I'm wearing a suit jacket and plain black pants so I'm sure going to look all professional. GOD.

So on the wedding front, I'm starting to get a bit spooked about booking things and feeling like I'm running out of time. So that's what I will be concentrating on - a hair person, a makeup person, flowers (have emailed a lady that seems quite popular on the wedding forum I freqent), a DJ and a videographer.

Also I talked to my mother last night and have her the hurry up to get me the guest list of people she wants to invite (or those who she thinks I ought to invite). She is actually remarkably uninterested in the wedding I am finding. Its been like pulling teeth asking her to get me this damn list. Its like she doesn't want to have any family friends there or doesn't want to put them out by travelling to the Hawkes Bay or something. Contrast that with G's mother who wants to invite every person she has ever spoken to.

Right, well better go get ready for this freaking party that I can't be bothered going to. Good times. Oh and for the avoidance of doubt, I will be totally relaxed on the diet tomorrow so hope to God I don't gain this week. And of course expecting my period tomorrow too. Brilliant

WB.

One week down

So I'm feeling ok about the weigh in tomorrow. I weighed myself a few times over the week and came in at 72.0kg and 72.1kg which would be a 800g loss. Not BRILLIANT but I am due my period this weekend so I'm probably retaining water like a mofo. I started taking water retention tablets today so that might make a difference.

So I've been up north for work this week - Sunday night returning Tuesday night. I'm really pleased with how I managed that because my normal MO when I'm up there in the hotel is room service, a bottle of wine to myself per night (pretty much - its stressful and there is nothing much to do so drinking helps) and pretty much bingeing on crap. But this time I didn't do any of that so I'm really pleased. I stayed within points and went to the hotel gym on Monday night, so yay me!! Lucky really now that I know I can do it as I'm back up for 5 nights or so on Sunday night (which also happens to be my birthday - unlucky).

So this week I've been sticking to 16 or now, 15 points, saving 4 each day for my birthday. I am now only allowed 19pts per day according to WW online as I revised my weight. I've been to the gym 3 times this week and managed to build it up to 40 minutes cardio tonight - yay!! I have kind of been beating myself up for not being able to do more than 30 minutes cardio but I guess its only been 1 week since I went back to the gym so I can't expect miracles. I'm pleased with my progress though.

So this Sunday is my birthday and G is taking me for lunch at a flash restaurant near where we live. I'm saving loads of points (as many as possible) to binge out on Sunday as I'm not going to count points. Will be interesting to see what that does to my next weight in too.

So all in all, its been just over a week and its felt like AGES. I am feeling a bit better within myself, clothes are feeling looser etc but that is probably losing bloat rather than fat. Still, I have 10 weeks to go now till the Boston holiday and I'm feeling ok.

Am on track for 4 gym sessions this week (will not go tomorrow night as need to give knees a rest, so will go Saturday morning - then going shopping with G for my birthday present afterwards - YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY).

Not much on the wedding front. Still no further ahead with a DJ or videographer. Will focus on that tomorrow and Saturday.

Over and out. Am hoping for a 1kg loss on the scale tomorrow so Scale Gods, if you're listening: BE KIND!

WideBride

So yesterday I was a bit naughty. I woke up feeling REALLY tired and could not get out of bed. I couldn't believe it had only been a 3 day week - next week is going to be a killer.

I was kind of excited to get up though as it was WEIGH DAY! Filled with trepidation, I went to the loo (onesies only - I can't manage twosies until about 10am after I have walked to work, had breakfast and had a cup of coffee), strippd off and stepped on the scales....

So I was slightly off with my estimation that I was 75kg - I came in at 72.8kg. I was pretty fucking pleased to see the '2' in '72' I can tell you. Even though I'm closer to 73 than 72 I'm pretty happy with that result. Well, you know as happy as I can be being a big fucking MOOSE. So I'm about 160.5lb so hopefully next week I'll be in the 150s then I feel like I really will be on my way.

So work was work - pretty busy preparing for a big work event I have coming up next week. I have to go to Manchester for 3 days tomorrow, returning Tuesday night. Then I'm up in Manchester for a whole week the week after so its been a bit hectic at work. I ate well all day (bread roll, ham, pineapple and yoghurt) and was full of good intentions of going to the gym after work. Sadly, my friend V who I work with had other ideas. She was all 'oh I REALLY don't want to go to the gym tonight, its Friday etc etc' and while I completely OWN my caving in, but I think i would have gone to the gym on Friday if, say, V hadn't been at work. But I justified it on the basis that I was tired and feeling kind of sore from the gym the day before (yes, the pitiful 30 minutes I did - but hey it HURT) so we went to the pub for a glass of wine. I had a large glass of chardonnay (250ml = 2.5 points) and I managed to make it last almost TWO HOURS! It was great. V even suggested a second drink but it was getting on for 8pm and the smell of hot chips in the pub was KILLING me so I went home. I made chicken and pasta last night, a little dry if truth be told.

But I am happy to say I did go to the gym today. I was sure I could manage 40 minutes of cardio but after 10mins on the cross trainer (fat burn), 10 minutes on the treadmill (0 incline, 5mins at level 8, 4 minutes at level 8.5 and 1 minute level 9) and then 10 minutes on the bike (random level 9) I was FUCKED. My face was bright red verging on the purple and I was really and knew that I honestly could not do any more so I did a 10 minute cool down walk and called it a day. I'm not going to beat myself up too much about only doing 30 minutes at the moment - I know I can do so much more and it will come.

So I came home and G and I had lunch - baguette and ham and mustard (8 points - eek but tasty!). Then we had the very sad task of taking down our Christmas tree. Saddest EVER. I love Christmas and I LOVE putting up the tree (like most good things in my life it involves Champagne) so taking it down is very sad. And a real drag actually - it took us like 2 hours to do that and tidy up and pack away the ornaments.

So we're now just relaxing. I cooked the rice for the prawn stirfry rice dish I am making tonight. Can't wait to eat it - I'm getting really hungry!!! So far I have had 10.5pts for the day adn 9.5 left, plus the 8.5 I have saved this week. Wine may well be a feature...

No wedding plans at all today but I did think as I was putting away the Christmas stuff that the next time I unpack them all again and put up the tree I am going to be 55kg or at least fricking close and my wedding will feel really close. God, I'm looking forward to it. Not just the day itself but being married and feeling like a 'grown up'. And trying for kids. Oh I can't wait to be a mother. I have always known I wanted kids and G is really keen too (I almost wish the wedding was this March so I didn't have to wait a whole nother year to have a baby).

Annoyingly, if I get pregnant right after the wedding we will have a Christmas baby - not that there is anything wrong with that but we would prefer not to have a Christmas child. It just seems a bit mean somehow. So we're going to, erm, 'throw caution to the wind' on the night of our wedding (if there is caution to be thrown on the night of the wedding - we might be too tired) and the morning after and if we get lucky we get lucky. If not, we won't start trying til about May next year. So that's the plan. Yeah, we like to plan stuff.

Getting back to normal

That's how I felt about today, as if I've got back to normal. I'm tired, feel nice and empty and I'm really feeling the cold - situation normal when I'm dieting.

I had a good diet day today and even went to the gym so I'm really pleased with myself. I went after work and managed half an hour of cardio before I was bright red and feeling a little queasy. I did 10 minutes on the cross trainer at 'fat burn' and burnt near to 100 calories so I was working. Then I did 10 minute run, 5 minutes at level 8 and 5 at 8.5. I could feel the fat woggling all over my hips and butt - I was actually UNDULATING. Bloody disgusting. I pity the poor bastard exercising behind me and having to see THAT. Then I did 10 minutes on the bike on random at level 9. That completely wiped me out so I did a 10 minute cool down walk on the treadmill (speed 5.2, gradient 3). And that was that.

I had a good food day too - a cereal bar for breakfast (2 points), an apple for morning tea, a bread roll and sliced chicken for lunch and then a 1.5 pt cereal bar for afternoon tea (I was going to have pineapple and yoghurt but got stuck on the phone at work and couldn't go to the fridge to get them). Then dinner was 3 quorn sausages and veges. I had tinned fruit salad and yoghurt for pudding so have come in at 15 points for the day - another 4 saved.

So this feels a really comfortable pattern to me. These are the foods I eat over and over when I'm dieting. They are simple and low point so I get to eat a lot (which is really important for me because I need to know I can eat a LOT) and I know the points values of them all so I don't feel like I'm guessing and accidentally eating more than I should. Its also been 2 days since I had any wine (believe me, this is HUGE).

Also, my scale arrived today from Amazon. I got the Weightwatchers brand that just tells the weight, none of the fancy BMI stuff but I figured it was less that could go wrong really. Also, just to test the scales I hopped on to them when I got home tonight (after the gym and a lot of water) and I came in at 74.1kg. I had been estimating 75kg so sadly I have not been that far off. Am hoping that when I do my 'official' weigh in tomorrow (Fridays) I will be even less (dare I hope for 73.5kg?) I'll let you know.

Right, well bed is calling me after my long day so I had better call it a night. On a very brief wedding note, the Videographer replied and said he is booked on the day of my wedding - boo!! I now have to try to decide whether or not to see who else is available. I'm kind of not really sold on having a video done and G definitely isn't but has said he would be ok with it if i really wanted it. The reason I chose the guy who is not available as I have heard he was excellent. Not sure I want to risk a really crap video.... Hmm, thought for another day.

Wish me luck for my weigh in!!

And they're off!

Well, that's day 1 under my belt. As predicted it was really easy (all Day 1s for me are - I'm motivated and basically still full and feeling sick from the previous weeks of overindulgence).

I have had 16 point's worth and will save 4. That is what I normally do - eat 16 during the week and save 4 each day so I have some extras to play with in the weekend. I plan to track my food on my notebook rather than online but from time to time I will probably go through my food list and analyse what I have been doing.

So I joined WW online today and have posted on a few threads for fellow bride to bes. Good to know there are others out there. I didn't weigh myself today though as I don't really trust my scale. Instead, I bought a scale on Amazon and its due to arrive at my work address tomorrow. I will weigh in for the first time on Friday and that will be my weigh day. For the purposes of WW, I have put 75kg (11 stone 9) as my start weight. That is a complete guess so I REALLY hope that I have grossly overestimated when I weigh in for the first time on Friday. I'll let you know (or you'll hear the screams...) So basically I have 2 and a half stone to lose. I would like to lose at least a stone before 20 March when I go on holiday. 11 weeks, 1 day.

Right, bed time. No news on the wedding today except I sent an email to the videographer people we will use if we go with having the wedding videoed. Haven't fully decided yet...

Just drafted a giant post and somehow its gone when I went to publish it. FUCK.

Can't be bothered re-hashing the full detail, but here are the highlights:

last night sucked
I am hugely fat
I need a glass of champagne

Diet starts tomorrow - quite looking forward to it. Am currently guess-timating I am 75kg so will be interesting to see if I am right. So only the 20kg to lose before this time next year...

But 2008 is my year. This will happen for me. Oh YES it will.

Happy new year!